tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-88160514227599937412024-03-13T23:35:44.275+08:00On My OwNhonesty, lies, pretentions, imaginations, deceptions, pain, frankness, attractions, luxury, love, hope,friendship.....ahhhh...streets are full of strangers,,,,yet life is so damn beautiful!Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.comBlogger152125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-36685894216874099632011-12-11T02:34:00.003+08:002011-12-11T02:50:48.328+08:00what is so special?it's 2:40 am and my eyes are still up. omg! as if do not worry that they are puyat last night plus had a very busy and occupied day today.,..(ah yesterday na pala un..)<br /><br />Dec. 10 was the wedding day of my dearest cousin aloy<br />Dec. 10 also the 50th golden birthday of my tita nancy<br />Dec. 10 also the Global One Praise concert sa SFC<br /><br />wish they were scheduled on a different day.<br /><br />ah forgot to mention that Dec. 10 is sweldo day also<br /><br /><br />what is so special?<br />because I am special<br />and they are all special to me<br />and God made this day truly full of celebration<br /><br />cheer!Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-89152305685064858942010-04-19T13:34:00.001+08:002010-04-19T13:36:11.268+08:00sunday 4-18-10In every decision we make, it is us who makes the choices. It is us to blame on the outcome, because it is our own will who decides what’s best for ourselves. But humans are sensitive and make mistakes. Humans cannot comprehend all the tribulations of the earth. And dealing with our neighborhood is much harder than dealing with any kind of God’s creation.<br /> <br />Depression occurs when we can no longer absorb all this motion. When we choose to shut up, it is when the hurt cut deep in our hearts. Sometimes when we choose to be voiceless, it is where the unsolicited notion resounds. We talk to ourselves and to our friends, not knowing that we referred to the angels and demons we imagined.<br /><br />I have not known his actions and reactions. I am not aware of his life, all I know is he is normal just like me. I have approached him not knowing that his depression is attacking him. It is during our prayers, when he uttered his prayer that I only understand his behavior. It is during our prayers that I was enlightened. I felt guilty though, but good thing about it, it awaken me of how great blessing God has poured in me. Through it, my awareness of reality broadens.<br /><br />It is also during our prayer that one brother revealed that he hasn’t visited his mom at the provincial jail for ten years. The brother is funny and very helpful. It was a shock to me to hear of his story.<br /><br />It is during mingling with our neighborhood that we tend to understand life, it is when reality unlocks. We were not all born on the same level and on the same time for us to appreciate and empathize with our fellow. In pursuit of our happiness, we stumble and frustrate, in doing so may we hold on to His promise that he will not leave us. He will cast the burdens we carry.Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-40360923166839391612009-11-24T12:13:00.004+08:002009-11-24T12:25:11.851+08:00i miss this<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhASFy4n4foWgwylNKnRJ5vQ29MOawKwhtrYSbZMhi7DGC7UOEm0KrfxHciwqXZqHLORuolPTOBSj3xAjxtlrUL9arnmB11BWreOngv5UfdLTNLvjKjbn-iEeWmB8Jjj24EwkWadbiW0pY/s1600/untitled2.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhASFy4n4foWgwylNKnRJ5vQ29MOawKwhtrYSbZMhi7DGC7UOEm0KrfxHciwqXZqHLORuolPTOBSj3xAjxtlrUL9arnmB11BWreOngv5UfdLTNLvjKjbn-iEeWmB8Jjj24EwkWadbiW0pY/s320/untitled2.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407518665070224722" /></a><br /><br /><br />i miss my mom.<br />i miss her baked lasagna.<br />i miss her tinola.<br />i miss her touch.<br />seven years of not having her by my side...<br />many sleepless nights and only her voice could calm me..<br />then i'll be fine..<br />if God permit, I'll be seeing her next year..<br /><br /><br />i miss my snowy.<br />oopss, she's not a person though.<br />but i miss taking her to the vet...<br />i miss walking her to the park...<br />if only i have more spare time...<br />on monday is holiday, perhaps then...<br />if i permit, just like old times...<br /><br /><br />okei, i'm thinking of him..<br />but i don't miss him..<br />him, whose laugh linger on my mind..<br />could that be possible?<br /><br /><br />I GUESS..<br />NOT....<br />YES...<br />sometimes i just feel lonely<br />sometimes i just want to be <br />with someone who appreciates meJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-8260361447189644702009-09-26T23:57:00.007+08:002009-09-28T21:01:24.382+08:00when nature strikes<span style="font-weight:bold;">kailan ba ako na stranded sa baha at traffic...</span><br />una - noong ginagawa ang nlex. pauwi ako ng probinsya noon. from north edsa hanggang balintawak, 5 hours ang byahe. kung makikipagkarera ang pagong sa bus na sinasakyan ko, pupusta ako mauuna pa syang makakarating sa finish line. ang tindi ng traffic, bumaha sa expressway dahil noong panahon na iyon eh under rennovation ito. so i decided na bumalik sa opisina at doon na lang matulog.<br /><br />pangalawa - hindi ako taga manila, hindi ako nag-aral sa ust, feu o ue, pero naranasan ko ng maglakad mula ust hanggang rotonda na ang baha eh lagpas sa tuhod. takot na takot at nanginginig ako noon. it was my first time, tsaka hindi ako sanay sa lugar.<br /><br />pangatlo - eto, si bagyong ondoy.noong una hindi ako makapaniwala kapag kinukwento ng mga kaopisina ko na lagpas tao daw ang tubig sa ibang lansangan. napaka exagge naman ng kwento sambit ko sa kanila. pero, magmula opisina, kitang kita namin ang not moving na mga sasakyan sa daan. bus, truck, kotse... lahat walang magawa kundi maghintay na magsubside ang tubig baha. dahil tapat lang ng opisina ang mall, we decided na magpalipas oras doon. pagdating doon ang daming tao sa labas - nakaupo, nakatayo, nakahiga, babae, lalaki, pamilya, magbabarkada..lahat stranded at kabilang kami doon. kaibahan lang sa kanila, bumalik kami ng opisina dahil doon may pagkain, upuan, higaan, airconditioned, at may wash room. <br /><br />sabi ng kasama ko "may sasakyan tayo, may pera tayo pero hindi tayo makauwi. wala tayong magawa"<br /><br />totoo, pagdating sa ganitong mga sitwasyon, mayaman ka man o mahirap wala kang magawa when nature strikes. sa tv pinapakita kung gaano kataas ang tubig baha. ang iba sa bubong na bahay na sila nagstay dahil umabot na hanggang second floor ang tubig. makati, quezon city, manila, pasig, marikina, rizal...walang ligtas sa tubig baha. 1st floor, second floor or third floor man yang bahay nyo, inabot pa rin ng baha.<br /><br />isang buwan na konsumo daw ng ulan ang binuhos ni ondoy ayon sa pag-asa. napakalakas nya, ang dami nyang baon na tubig. hindi ba nya alam na sobra sobra na tayo sa tubig baha...i feel blessed dahil walang baha sa lugar namin, pero sobrang depressing ang napapanood kong balita sa tv, oh ondoy!<br /><br />sabi nga after the storm there's a rainbow, and the sun will shine again..<br />may it shine so bright tomorrow..Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-90516484624306496982009-09-04T14:11:00.003+08:002009-09-05T11:04:50.044+08:00it was a dreamIt was easy to tell, I’m not a swimmer. My hand grasp firmly on each edge of the pool. My body soaked in the warm liquid and I let my feet enjoy the movement of the water.<br /><br />I looked down and see how pure and clear the water is. From my position, I could vividly see how deep it was too. Oh inviting, slowly I moved my body, in its own modest way embracing the stillness the water offer.<br /><br />I’m in control I thought, but it was also that moment that I realized my hands bit by bit is slipping away. “I can’t swim, I will be drowned” i told myself.<br />No one is prepared, no one see the vision. I tried to hold on tightly but my body made no move. Through my feet, I tried to reach the bottom of the pool, but I forgot that the water is as deep as the ocean.<br /><br />Help, I shouted but no one is hearing me. I would die, and it’s unavoidable echoed in my mind. Soon, my body was quickly but smoothly moving down....down...but amidst the incidence I felt peace and quiet.<br /><br />And so I took advantage of the calm to think and ponder all the blessings that God has bestowed on me, for all the teachings He thought and for the opportunity to experience life. I’ve seen & heard it all with perfect clarity as I utter…”Lord take me in, I’m ready to die”<br /><br />Then, I woke up...Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-16960663568667330532009-08-29T17:28:00.001+08:002009-08-29T17:30:51.994+08:00statusOne day, as I was browsing my fb account I decided to changed my status into a in a relationship. Soon, friends commented and asked me to fill in the missing story. I was quiet about it and never did I express any details on how, why, where and when. He is my first bf, so I guess it stir eagerness in them to meet him.<br /><br />The chitchat vastly spread among my relatives too. Whenever I speak with them, they would begin and end our conversation on giving me advices about this relationship. I’ve mentioned him to my mom and dad. Yes, just mention. Then, what makes me hold back in introducing him to my family? I should know, of course. There are some issues that needs to elucidate, some information that needs to refine. The relationship started so fast, and so some process where put behind. But the fact that I feel bothered means that something is wrong………<br /><br />Then what makes me hang on this complicated relationship? Do I sympathize with him, or was just I’m too thrilled by the attention he gives? I let the bold me cross the threshold……but I should also let the bold me discern if God will delight in me..Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-41368275328913901542009-07-29T20:48:00.005+08:002009-07-29T23:28:55.910+08:00kailangan lang ng breakthis past few days i've been very busy doing office work and organizing an event. and that situation inhibit me from doing my usual life routine - gym, movies, dining out, coffee, family, friends. so when friends and family asked me "why are you not responding to my text messages, have you received any" "aren't you coming home?" my one and only answer i give them is that "i'm busy"<br /><br />im busy,,,,<br />i just wanted to be alone and think and ponder....<br />and when im back to my self ill be home soon....<br /><br />busy for what? i sometimes question myself. i believe that there is time for everything. and time God has given us should be used fruitfully and accordingly. then why am i acting as if i don't know that.<br /><br />or is it just an excuse to put behind some worries and focused on what makes you feel good or what makes you at a distance. that there's so much going on in your mind that cannot handle another burn out. or is it an excuse to hide your weaknesses? another task is in your hand that you are anxious you might not be an efficient leader. <br /><br />"whats our plan? arent we supposed to do this? we need an activity." i recall telling this to my brother in christ, now that they have offered me to lead parang natakot ako sa responsibilidad. this are houses to build, kids to teach, and a community to recreate.<br /><br /><br />on saturday would be our first activity. we will paint the wall and play with the kids, i am excited but my heart still beat in a high-speed.<br /><br />"my child, it's not your duty to change the world. you are my instrument, just plant and plant and continue to plant the faith....and i'll do the rest" i hear you Lord.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />sabi nga sa commercial ni pareng robin padilla, kailangan lang ng break para mapansin. haiisttt..tugma ba?Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-42050806956964118572009-07-06T18:44:00.000+08:002009-07-06T18:45:21.870+08:00princess diaryWomen are special.<br /><br /><br /><br />They long to be loved, <br />they long to be romanced, <br />they long to be rescued,<br />they long to be pursued, <br />they long to be beautiful, <br />and they long to be needed<br /><br /><br /><br />I am a womanJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-68083897198453249822009-06-29T18:12:00.007+08:002009-07-01T17:42:18.457+08:00reduce stressit's been what, 3 weeks? but i still can't get over you. everytime na naiisip kita, minsan napapaiyak pa rin ako. huh! im sure nakangiti ka habang nakatingin ka sa amin noh..parang nakikita ko na dimple mo...natatawa ka siguro noh!?<br /><br />funny, hindi ako makatulog mag isa sa room ko. hindi ako makatulog sa lights off. pero minsan im whispering na sana dumalaw ka sa panaginip ko, na sana yakapin mo ako ng mahighpit...pero joke lang yun, kaya huwag mong seryosohin ah...<br />i know you're your at peace nah.<br /><br />dont worry, im better now compare during the first week. alam ko, gusto mo laging happy dibah. soon, i will realized completely why your life has to be sacrificed. i dont want to force myself, kasi it will haunt me parin eh...<br />"midinan ya ring mayap a oras" sabi mu pin....<br /><br />*****************************************************************************<br /><br />listed below are guidelines para maging smooth ang paghinga natin..hehehe..actually, alam na natin ang mga ito, but sometimes kailangan katukin at i remind ang ating isip at puso...so here they are:<br /><br />1. Pray. <br />2. Go to bed on time.<br />3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.<br />4. Say No to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.<br />5. Delegate tasks to capable others.<br />6. Simplify and unclutter your life.<br />7. Less is more.. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)<br />8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.<br />9. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together.<br />10. Take one day at a time.<br />11. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it.<br />12. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.<br />13. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.<br />14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.<br />15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.<br />16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line.<br />17. Get enough rest.<br />18. Eat right.<br />19. Get organized so everything has its place.<br />20. Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of life.<br />21. Write down thoughts and inspirations.<br />22. Every day, find time to be alone.<br />23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot.. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.<br />24. Make friends with Godly people.<br />25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.<br />26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thank you Jesus."<br />27. Laugh.<br />28. Laugh some more!<br />29. Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.<br />30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).<br />31. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).<br />32. Sit on your ego.<br />33. Talk less; listen more.<br />34. Slow down.<br />35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.<br />36. Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before. GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU. "If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31).Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-59790725481657100772009-06-18T14:34:00.003+08:002009-06-20T09:20:56.487+08:00IN PAINI went to the gym…my usual routine. 8:30-9:30 combat time! A group exercise where we kick and punch. And yeah, how I enjoy every minute of that exercise. I positioned myself, soon enough we began the exercise. Hindi ko maintindihan ang katawan ko kung bakit at that time wala sa mood. At around 9:10 lumipat ako sa likod, at umupo. May isang lalaki lumapit sa akin “huwag kang umupo, baka mahilo ka” sympre alam ko ang rule na iyon, sus. After a few breath, nag join na ako sa exercise kaso ilang Segundo lang umaalis ako..until I decided na umuwi na. niyaya kona kaibigan ko na umuwi. Habang naglalakad papunta sa locker room, nasambit ko sa aking kaibigan na “its so weird, nag eenjoy ako sa combat, bakit ngayon parang wala ako sa mood. Ive been doing the exercise for almost 2 years na ngayon lang nangyari sa akin ito”. i changed shirt then tumuloy sa grocey para bumili ng ingredients for spaghetti..(hehe I was craving for pasta eh). <br /><br />As soon as I reached home, pinrepare kona spaghetti. Kahit gabi, talaga naman nagluto ako. I started eating at past 12midnight. Reading the breaking dawn while eating. I look at the clock, 1:30am nah. I should be sleeping by now. So weird. Feeling ko may nakatingin sa akin, feeling ko may dumadaan sa likod ko. Tumitingin ako sa salamin every now and then. So weird. Gusto ko ng matulog pero parang hindi ako inaantok.<br /><br />The next morning I received two text messages. Hindi ko muna binasa. Sabi ko, mamya na lang kapag nasa taxi na. Pagsakay ko, binuksan ko inbox, then read muna isang message from a friend, then sinunod ko ung isa…..ooohhhh nohhhh…this can’t be sabi ko sa sarili ko. Hindi pwede. I scroll down hoping to read a words saying..no, he’s fine. No, it was not him. I dialed the sender’s number pero di sya sumasagot. Pagdating ko sa office, they confirmed to me what happened. No, can’t be. Until I spoke to a friend, saying he’s gone…………oh my! He is too young. Kasama lang naming sya last Friday..we’re supposed to have breakfast nung Sunday, kaso hindi na ako lumabas. Oh noh!!! noong gabing iyon, noong oras na ako ay nasa gym, same time ng maaksidente sila, ng dalhin sya sa hospital, ng sabihing wala na syang buhay...........<br /><br />Habang nasa office ako, naiimagine ko face nya. Minsan natutulala ako. Hindi ako makapaniwala, shock till now. Umuwi ako kahapon, mas masakit pala ang makita ka na lying, resting in peace forever. Pinigilan ko ang mga luha, pinigilan kong titigan ka, pero ang damdamin ayaw magsinungaling, unti unti itong bumigay.<br />Masakit. Biglaan ang pangyayari. Lahat hindi makapaniwala. Maraming mga katanungan. Bakit? Paano? Bakit? kung sana, kung sana? Paulit ulit na bumubulong sa isip at puso. Pero in the end, we need to accept that it happened. That you are now in heaven. it takes time.<br /><br />We will miss you for sure.<br />Bye nards.Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-83931563805022656082009-06-07T11:46:00.008+08:002009-06-08T18:04:21.849+08:00si cj<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4RB8WG8ySrUjDp4I2wDKeRA-MXvBxzGGxwZghy3Tx1Cy-6jLgcTmXfZzOWxT2wGAAtC_2fUL4iiKcPm9YkUljTOa9wBs-QTyvvl-JC6g42ZdoQVqUWaP5C8P55X6g376RcJ1NZX5r6jQ/s1600-h/cj.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 97px; height: 130px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4RB8WG8ySrUjDp4I2wDKeRA-MXvBxzGGxwZghy3Tx1Cy-6jLgcTmXfZzOWxT2wGAAtC_2fUL4iiKcPm9YkUljTOa9wBs-QTyvvl-JC6g42ZdoQVqUWaP5C8P55X6g376RcJ1NZX5r6jQ/s320/cj.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344894806935726770" /></a><br />naalala ko, tuwing nakikita ko siya sa daan, sinisigaw ko ang pangalan nya sabay lapit sa kanya at ikikiss sa cheek at ihuhug ko. bata pa sya noon, nasa elementarya pa, ako nasa high school (oh, huwag mag-isip ng malisya) mga kaibigan ko ang mga kapatid nya. malimit akong umuwi ng probinsya pero naglalakad man sya, nakasakay sa motor basta makita sya ng dalawang mata ko isisigaw at isisigaw ko pangalan nya..cjjjjjjj...lingon sya sakin at bibigyan ako ng isang ngiti.<br />nakasanayan ko na iyon, kaya kahit ngayon medyo nadagdagan na ang edad ko at edad nya, ginagawa ko pa rin.<br /><br />nagkita kami noong sabado ng gabi. nagtatampo daw sa akin. una, hindi ko maintidihan pero habang sinasambit nya ang rason kung bakit, doon lang naging malinaw sa akin ang lahat. may 31, 2009 nagcelebrate sya ng kanyang 20th birthday. at dahil every year binabati ko sya, at dahil naging malapit ako sa kanya, ninais nyang i-celebrate yon na kasama ako. inabangan daw nya ako, kung kaya't nang makita ako dali dali binigkas nya pangalan ko pero walang ingay na lumabas sa kanyang bibig dahil napansin nyang nakabihis ako at dali dali ding sumakay ng tricycle. nalungkot daw sya at nanghinayang. gusto pa naman daw nyang makilala ko ang kanyang girlfriend, gusto nyang maging saksi ako sa kung ano man kahihitnan ng kanilang relasyon. <br /><br />ang pagsigaw ko sa pangalan nya tuwing nakikita ko sya, ang paghalik sa pisngi at paghug ko sa kanya ay hindi lang isang gesture or isang hobby ko bagkus isang paalala sa kanya na mahal ko sya na parang isang bunsong kapatid. siguro, ganoon din nararamdaman nya kaya ganoon na lamang ang paulit ulit nyang pagsambit na nagtatampo sya sa akin.<br /><br />si cj, belated happy birthday sa iyo. bawi ako next year.<br />remember sabi ko..bata kapa, take time okay sa alright!Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-55576717904608007672009-06-04T15:05:00.000+08:002009-06-04T15:06:29.576+08:00mission: GKAnd I always believe that we are here on earth not to live para sa sarili at pamilya lang, but to share to our neighbors to whatever help we can extend. Returning all the blessings that God has given us. A help doesn’t mean financial donation, it could be a simple as following the traffic rules o kaya just doing good deeds. Minsan kasi tayo complain ng complain, but we forgot to ask ourselves..ako ba, ano ba ginagawa ko to make this world a better place to live in. <br /><br />Kapag may opportunity na pwede akong makatulong especially sa community where I belong, talaga naman….excited ang puso ko. <br /><br />Together with my fellow sfc – we went to pampanga para magbigay ng munting regalo sa mga batang mag-uumpisa na sa kanilang pag-aaral. Notebook, pad, pencil, ballpen, crayons. It was my second time to be in that place, pero each has different impact in my life. Iba, iba ang pakiramdam kapag nakatulong ka. Helping without expecting anything in return. Minsan iniisip ko kulang pa,,kulang pa ang tulong na binibigay ko,..and I’m yearning for more.Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-89753856809115978682009-06-01T16:59:00.000+08:002009-06-01T17:00:13.572+08:00Mood: happy!Reason: hindi dahil uminom ako ng enervon c na vitamin, hindi rin dahil happee toothpaste ang gamit ko kundi ang puso ko ay tumitibok tibok…..ayyyy,,hindi dahil natagpuan ko na ang aking pag-ibig kundi at long last for 8 years or long pa(!?) I haven’t talk to a friend eh finally the cold war has ended. <br /><br />Dahil sa mga circumstances na nangyari sa aming paligid, naging mailap kami sa isa’t isa. Pero noong nakaraan gabi, siguro si Lord gusto nang maibsan ang bigat na aking nararamdaman, it was time for us to forget all the bad things happened, time for us to mend the broken heart (naks naman!!!...as if).<br /><br />Sympre dahil sa sobrang tagal na naming hindi nag-uusap, ayun reminisce kami ng past. 8 years na no talk, omg! Tlga…I didn’t recognize her voice, parang naging mature na, pero soft spoken pa rin. She has one son na, though everybody thinks napag-iwanan na nila ako (eh ok lang, kapag ako nagkaroon ng baby, eh luma na yung baby nila nun…hahahahah).<br /><br />Hayyyyy……tagal ko ring hinintay na maging malapit kami muli sa isa’t isa. Gosh, I miss her! She is one friend na talagang I cherished. Hindi naman kami actually nag-away, yung mga nakapaligid lang sa amin…hayyy mahabang kwento un, kaya since okei na kami, nevermind na na lang. I know hindi na maibabalik yung dati naming bonding sa isa’t isa pero still, atleast I am at peace na with myself and with her<br /><br />Lord, thank you! Mmmuuuahhhh!Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-24239906714125555582009-05-09T16:05:00.002+08:002009-05-09T17:22:16.228+08:00gat tag gatHello world! Hello phillipines!<br />Tutal, weekend naman….at pahinga days ko. Iiwan ko sa inyo itong tag na galing kay mareng jen (hirap akong ispelingan pangalan mo mare..actually..heheh). bahala na kayo kung babasahin nyo o hindi...pero kung mahaba naman oras mo, eh sige na basahin mo na...hehehe..sya sya sya….<br /><br />ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now<br />(don't tell us who it is)<br />1. " God is good, all the time"<br />2. “mind your own business”<br />3. "goodluck"<br />4. "Minahal mo ba ako?”<br />5. “magbayad ka ng utang!"<br />6. "duh! We’re just friends"<br />7. "it’s alright..no problem"<br />8.”na naman..ako na lang parati, ako ako ako”<br /> 9. “where is my honey pie sugar pie?”<br />10. “kain tayo”<br /><br />nine things about yourself:<br />1. Suplada (hhmmppp)<br />2. mataray (eh, ano ngayon!?)<br />3. maingay<br />4. Tahimik (sympre di naman pwede lagging maingay eh noh)<br />7.matakaw (habang may pera, kumain ng kumain..)<br />8.kuripot (global crisis noh)<br />9. maarte<br /><br />eight ways to win your heart:<br />1. Dalhan ako ng paborito kong cake<br />2. ipagluto ng breakfast<br />3. talk to me during late nights<br />4.talk to me during mornings<br />5. talk to me during afternoon<br />6. Sabayan mo ako sa pag wowork out<br />7. linisin ang buong bahay namin <br />8. Maging thoughtful sa aking magulang… <br /><br />seven things you want to happen to you before you die:<br />1. Magka baby….<br />2. Magka pamilya<br />3. mabigyan ng bahay at negosyo ang aking pamilya<br /> 4 Makabili ng mini coaster…para may service ang mga angkan ko kapag naglalakwatsa<br /><br /> 5. malibot lahat ng isla sa pinas kasama ang mommy ko!<br />6. Makapagpa-aral ng mga bata <br />7. .makapag volunteer sa ngo <br /><br />wer na is 6? :D hinahanap ko rin, actually <br /><br />five turn offs:<br />1. smoker<br />2. lasenggo<br />3. sugarol<br />4. tahimik<br />5. marumi<br /><br />four turn ons:<br />1. smile<br />2. Kalog<br />3. malinis<br />4. muscles<br /><br />three smileys that describe your life:<br />1. :D so blessed I cant contain it, so much I got to give it away <br />2. :-) life is beautiful<br /> 3. :-x less talk, less mistake<br /><br />two things you wish you never did:<br />1. Ang balewalahin sya<br />2. At balewalahin ang sarili ko…duh!?<br /><br />one confession:<br />hayyyy..confession…ayaw ko nga baka isumbong nyo pa ako sa daddy ko..hehehhe…<br /><br />at..ipapasa ko naman it okay…mareng <a href="http://mapanuringpanitik.blogspot.com/">azel</a>, <a href="http://cemaesbay.blogspot.com/">tita eds</a>, <a href="http://www.staceyavenue.com/">stacey</a><br /><br /><br /><br />*************************************************************************************<br /><br />Susunod….haba haba ito, I know. Pero konti na lang, matatapos kana…o sya, pagpatuloy<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Mga saksayan sa buhay mo</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Jeep</span>-“ma, para po”. Natutuwa ako kapag sumasakay ako ng jeep. Minsan pa nga nagkakasala ako sa pagtingin tingin sa ibat’t ibang mukha sa loob ng jeep. Usually kasi tuwing gabi pauwi sa bahay ko sinasakyan yan eh. Wala ng init, at dina rin halata ang pollution. Madalas na makakasabay mo yung mga galing sa trabaho..malamang kilala na ako ng mga driver at caller dun, kasi lagi at araw araw dun lang me sumasakay<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Bus</span>- I hate buses! Minsan na akong naligaw ng first time kong sumakay ng bus sa metro city. Tsaka ayaw ko yung nakikipagsiksakan sa bus, at yung nakatayo dahil puno na at wala ng maupuan. Tsaka ayaw ko ang amoy ng bus, nahihilo ako.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Bike na de padyak</span>– natumba-tumba muna ako bago ako natutong magbike. Nung bata ako, tinatakas ko pa ito para lang mag-aral kung paano sumampa at pumadyak…heheh<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Bike na de motor</span>- tuwing weekend, tuwing umuuwi ako ng probinsya, kasali sa iterinary ko ang sakyan ito. Lalo na kapag gabi, malamig ang simoy ng hanging kapag itinodo to the highest level ang pag arangkada dito. matagal na rin serbisyu nito sa akin, sa amin ng kaibigan ko. Actually, kapag nakaipon ako bibili ako ng isa pa…yung mas malaki,.,.heheheh<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Airplane</span> – first time kong mag Philippine airlines nung nakakuha ako ng free travel sa hongkong galing sa kumpanyang aking pinaglilingkuran. Sympre, exciting ang drama kahit na medyo kabado. At sana marami pa akong travel na gagawin….<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Taxi</span>- ahhh…I can’t live without taxi. Every morning yan ang aking sinasakyan papuntang opisina. At yan din ang aking sinasakyan tuwing makikipagkita ako sa mga kaibigan. May mga numbers pa ako ng mga operator, para kapag tinatamad akong lumabas para mag-abang ng taxi, mega call ako….<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Kotse ni papang</span> – noong college ako, hatid sundo ako sa kotse ni papang. Nung magtrabaho ako, minsan sumasabay pa ako sa kanya, lalo na kapag wala me pera pang taxi,,nyahahahaha. Pero minsan may nagcomment sa akin…..”kailan namin kaya makikitang ibang lalaki naman ang magsundo at hatid sa iyo at hindi ang papang mo”,,hihihi<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Company Service</span>- iba iba kasi eh, kaya no particular car. Iba iba, kaya iba iba rin ang amoy..heheheh. Sinasakyan kapag bumibista sa ibang opisina<br /><br />Kung umabot ka hanggang dito, ehhh salamay sa pagtyatyaga mo..mabuhay ka!<br /><br />at..ipapasa ko naman ito,,parehas pa rin kay… mareng <a href="http://mapanuringpanitik.blogspot.com/">azel</a>, <a href="http://cemaesbay.blogspot.com/">tita eds</a>, <a href="http://www.staceyavenue.com/">stacey</a>Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-7241001330094925212009-05-06T00:49:00.004+08:002009-05-06T01:24:02.592+08:00toli 2<span style="font-weight:bold;">"WHEN I LET GO OF WHAT I AM, I BECOME WHAT I MIGHT BE"<span style="font-style:italic;"></span></span>...-lao tzu<br /><br />may pagka wild and adventurous ako...i want to be free! ang drama ko..kaya minsan, natatakot ako sa sarili ko. dahil kapag ginusto kong gawin, magagawa ko...sabagay kapag gusto may paraan, kapag ayaw maraming dahilan.<br /><br />pero, guided by the values i've learned hindi ako nang-aapak ng tao, hindi ako manggagamit ng kapwa just to satisfy my pleasure. maraming pagkakataon na sinubok ang aking pagkatao. huh! pagkatapos kong itaboy ang isang makamundong bagay, may panibagong alay na pilit na lumalason sa aking natitirang katinuan. pero sympre, sabi nga ng mymp - make your mama proud - alas! ayaw kong umiyak si mommy ng dahil sa kamalian ko..not only her, but my whole family and friends<br /><br />kaso, may mga decisions ako na i regret...till now. you see, duwag din ako. i have weaknesses too that i do not admit to myself..minsan gusto ko ng i-let go...kaso natatakot ako...<br /><br />kanina nabasa ko sa post ni <a href="http://lordcm.blogspot.com/2009/05/gusto-ko-lang-balikan.html">cm</a><br />Walang masama kung susubukan mo, kahit isang minuto pagbigyan mo ang sarili mong maging masaya...kahit isang segundo lang okey na un.<br /><br />afterall, i deserve to be happyJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-48518266302908834882009-05-03T09:55:00.003+08:002009-05-03T22:53:41.129+08:00lito"hindi mo maiintindihan, kasi you never fell in love" sinabi yan sa aking ng isang taong mahal ko...<br /><br />yes, i admit, okay fine, i was never in a relationship, never in my entire beautiful life! why!? maganda naman ako (ahemm) may magandang kaloonban (aahhemmm.ulit)..may trabaho din...ewan ko...minsan dinadahilan ko because i studied in an exclusive school since highschool till college...pero, hindi eh...dahil ba only girl ako?,,,,,hindi rin....it was a choice...siguro... may mga umaligid, mga vocal sa kanilang nararamdaman. Ngunit, pero wa ko type,,,sori....minsan kasi may mga isinasaalang-alang pa akong nalalaman.... meron naman na ewan ko, hindi ko maintindihan ang estado....<br /><br /><br />kaya minsan, nalilito ako kung love naba nararamdaman ko o lust lang?Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-65688172368257527902009-04-28T18:18:00.002+08:002009-04-29T00:01:15.218+08:00pahabolHhmmnn……huli na ba ako? Di bale at least nakahabol naman……eto na<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">8 things i look forward to </span><br />1. Matuloy ang aking pagbabakasyon sa Bangkok o kaya sa Vietnam ngayong taon…(syakkksss…sana sana sana sana sana) <br />2. Makapag enroll na sa driving school (sana sana sana sana…para naman I can stand on my own na…hehehe)<br />3. matapos na ang mga utang kong binabayaran..hehehe (konti na lang konti na lang)<br />4. Sana magka boyfriend na ako... (sige na Lord, pagbigyan mo na ako pleeeease..heheheh)<br />5. Ang sfc anniversary sa aming probinsya…(October yunnn!!)<br />6. ang gk sympre…sana, sana makasali ako…<br /> 7. family outing sa may! Kahit tag-ulan na, oks lang<br /> 8. Christmas! Para lahat happy<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">8 Things i did yesterday:</span><br />1. nagbasa ng eclipse (3rd book ng twilight saga)<br />2. kumain ng yogurt at doughnut<br />3 nag gym..(duh!)<br />4. nagcalculate, nagbalanse, nag check<br />5. nanood ng tv<br />6. nakipagkulitan kay snowy<br />7. Nagdasal, nagtanong…<br />8. nagfacebook, nagblog<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">8 Things i wish could do: </span><br />1.Mag drive na<br />2.Magbakasyon sa Bangkok! <br />3.Mag-enroll sa pasukan ng kurso sa edukasyon (uu, I want to teach, I want to teach kids)<br />4.Makapag bungee jump..hehehe kahit afraid sa heights<br />5.Makapag donate ng blood sa red cross<br />6.Volunteer sa gk<br />7.Ano pa ba…hmmnnn basahin at tapusin lahat ng books ko na dipa nababasa<br />8.At pumunta sa bansa ni pareng obama para mabisita ang pinaka importatanteng tao sa aking buhay! (pero may swine flu,,pano kaya to)<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />8 Shows i watch: </span><br />1. tayong dalawa <br />2. may bukas pa <br />3. snn (ano ba, kailangan din ma update sa showbiz,, hehhehe)<br />4. E! (kailangan din maki tsismis sa Hollywood)<br />5. 24 (shettt..bibili talaga ako ng series nito kapag nagka extra money ako)<br />6. cnn (in fairness…heheheh serious ahh)<br />7. actually..wala masyado..busy eh<br />8. wala talaga….busy nga kulet.<br /><br />Kanino ko ba ipapasa? Ewan ko, wala siguro kasi mukhang nagsawa na kayo sa kakabasa nyan eh. Tagal nang umiikot ngayon lang napasyal sa akin, hehehe…..busy-busyhan ang drama ko weh….hayyzzz…<br /><br />ps<br />ahhh..salamat kuya <a href="http://rhodeydomingo.blogspot.com/">rhodey </a>sa tag mo, in fairness napa isip ako,,.,hehehhe...Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-73744689906224354502009-04-24T23:00:00.008+08:002009-04-26T14:56:04.869+08:00si kapatid<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMQAoPZMRMHDSpiXPJbud3brBBc_-WtGQXPqFy7tNCo-1jSDn2yN4_mFTyoSsnt5jbYeq8zxnOJ79sPbnP42FJX3rBN19Vj546UzwMl6X8b-UyZVwf57fcbHUSwW_dNt0PUiblGUissNY/s1600-h/1_372904706l.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMQAoPZMRMHDSpiXPJbud3brBBc_-WtGQXPqFy7tNCo-1jSDn2yN4_mFTyoSsnt5jbYeq8zxnOJ79sPbnP42FJX3rBN19Vj546UzwMl6X8b-UyZVwf57fcbHUSwW_dNt0PUiblGUissNY/s320/1_372904706l.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5328881605882756098" /></a><br />ang aming bunso. dahil bunso, may pagka spoiled. Kung anong hingin, madalas pinagbibigyan. Hayaan mo na, madalaas kong marinig sa bibig ng aking inay. Malambing kasi ito eh, joker pa. at sinadsbihan ko ng I love you,,,hahaha..uu ina-I love you ko yan,,,,hug and kiss ko pa….pero ayaw na ayaw nyang naka=akbay ako sa kanya kapag nasa mall kami,,,hehe baka isipin daw ng tao mag un kami,,,nyahahahha…pero ako pilit kong kinukuha ang braso nya,,,,<br /><br />June 2007 nang sabihan nya kami na pupunta sya sa Qatar para magtrabaho.going 22 ang edad nya nun.. Kasama nya ang pinsan ko na makikipagsapalaran at magpapalipas ng oras. Ayaw kong pumayag, may pangamba at pag-alala kong pinahiwatig yun sa aking magulang. At ganoon din sila. Ang bunso kasi namin hindi pa naranasang magtrabaho. Sa bahay, bihira kong makitang may hawak na tambo at basahan yan para maglinis. Madalas kasama nya mga pinsan at kaibigan. naglalaro sa computer, nagbabasketball, nag-iinuman. Pero mapilit sya, at sa bandang huli napapayag na nya rin kami. para matutunan nya ang buhay, para magmature sya, yan ang dinahilan namin sa aming sarili.<br /><br />September 2007 ng makaalis sya. hindi sya masyadong nalungkot kasi magkasama sila sa trabaho ng pinsan ko at ng kaibigan nya. Dahil naka 24/7 ang internet connection, madalas din kaming magchat. Pero umuwi ang pinsan ko at kaibigan nya noong November 2008. Naiwan syang mag-isa sa kwarto, mag-isa sa Qatar. Tatapusin daw nya ang 2year contract nya. Matagal pa. kahit anong tingin ang gawin ko sa kalendaryo, matagal pa ang pagtitiis ni brother. noong february tinanong nya ako kung pwede na raw syang umuwi....sinabi ko sa magulang ko,,pumayag naman sila,,ayun na set na namin sa mayo ang uwi nya. kaso, biglang nagbago na naman pasya nya. tatapusin na daw nya contract nya (na namannn..) pero siguro, napapagod na sya doon at na hohomesick na sya.first time nyang magtrabaho at first time nyang malayo sa amin ng matagal....<br /><br />noong makalawa, nabasa ko message nya, uwi na raw talaga sya...hindi ko pa sya nakakausap pero nag reply ako sa kanya,,,na ayusin na nya mga papeles nya doon at anytime pwede na syang bumalik dito sa pinas para makapiling namin.....yun din sabi ko sa text ko kagabi...ayun nag reply na naman na hindi daw sya uuwi...<br />ang gulo nyah...<br /><br />tuwing napapagod sya sa trabaho, tuwing namimiss na nya kami, binibigkas nya ang katagang..gusto ko ng umuwi...siguro sa puso nya, gusto na nya talagang umuwi, kaso nag titiis lang. si kapatid...nananabik na rin akong mayakap sya. pero proud ako dun, kasi nakayanan nya at kinakaya nya.Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-30908644030064493802009-04-23T23:39:00.002+08:002009-04-23T23:41:57.610+08:00pagod langI’m tired, so drained. My hands, my eyes, my shoulder, my whole body needs to relax. As soon as I came home from work I lay down my body on my bed and close my eyes. But it wasn’t enough to keep my muscles calm. I’m so tired. I wanted to finish my work to meet deadlines. I’ve finished typing, calculating and balancing one duty awhile ago, though I have to allow my eyes to have a final check tomorrow. I should be resting now, to revive the force for the continuation of my function. But here I am …hahahha im just thinking, perhaps blogging might help my body cheer up..nyahahahha<br /><br />I actually beg to be excused from an engagement with my friends tonight. I am truly feels so bad for not being present. And possibly they feel bad towards me, I guess for not being there (again!). Yes, it wasn’t the first time I let pass our gathering. I remember, they actually call me “architect” kasi puro daw ako drawing. Pero kasi naman there are times na sobrang pagod na ako at gusto ko na lang magpahinga. Am I bad? I guess next time I would not say yes at once so as they will not expect my present. Anyway, ill meet them on Sunday (hahahahah…inilaan ko na yun…pupunta ako), ill buy them a cake & chocolate na lang para pang suhol sa kanila para di na sila magalit. Hahahha, I guess I’m really bad….<br /><br />goodnight people!Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-40573890577909728642009-04-22T16:32:00.003+08:002009-04-22T17:20:38.659+08:00i-kwento, i-kwentaFiesta..sunod sunod na. sa aming lugar sa probinsya, pwede ka ng magpatay ng kalan sa dami ng fiesta. Tuwing linggo meron. Masaya iyon, bukod sa sobrang dami ng pagkain na pagpipilian, may mga iba’t ibang pakulo pa na inihanda. May nakita nga akong banner na si angel locsin ang bibisita sa kanila at ipaparada. At narinig ko ang aking lola na tinatanong ang oras nang pagparada sa kanya…balak daw nyang pumunta..ahihiihhi..parang gusto ko rin syang makita para makampante ako kung talagang totoo ang chismis na kahawig ko daw sya…nyahahhaha…o walang kokontra…di nyo pa naman ako nakikita….tsaka malamig ang panahon kaya bawal mag-init…ukies<br /><br />Sige, tuloy ko na,,,nawala ako ahhh,,ano nga, ayunn fiesta…isa sa pakulo ay ang ms. Gay pageant. Marami akong mga kaibigan na member of the third sex(?). nakakatuwa silang kasama. I always look forward sa araw na kami ay magkikita. Walang dull moment, hayyyyy halakhak ditto, halakhak dyan, halakhak everywhere…nakakatulong sila sa pagkabata ng istura, isip, at puso,,heheh. dahil isa sa kanila eh may lihim akong pagtingin,,naks, crush ko sya, uu..gwapito weh, kamukha ni gabby concepcion...sayang! Tsk..sabi ko sa kanya gagawin kitang lalaki…hahahah…sagutin ba naman akong, sige subukan mo!..hahahhaha..masubok nga...nyaahahaha..anyway, ayun dahil ung crush ko ang nag I-second the motion sa pag-imbita sa akin para manood, hindi sya contestant, magjujudge daw sya ayun sige, punta ako bukas, siguro,,,depende sa panahon, kapag umulan, tatamarin ako. Haba haba kaya ng lalakbayin ko, manggagaling pa ako sa metro city.....sususs...sana umulan para may dahilan akong hindi makarating..hahahahha..bad jez, badddddddd! <br /><br />************************************************************************************<br /> <br />Pinangako ko na sa sarili ko na hindi na ako magbubukas ng computer sa gabi. At kung magbukas man eh, hanggang 11pm lang dapat,,,dapat! Dahil sa araw araw na pagka adik ko dito weh, ayun langya araw araw late ako sa office. sa bawat minuto eh may bawas yun, susme, sayang yun, pang paparlor ko na kay snowy my baby ko yun..langya. kaya ayun, maaga na akong natutulog. Pero langya, ganun rin pala suma total, maaga man akong matulog late pa rin ako sa office…kung kaya’t aking napagdesisyunan…magbubukas na ako ng computer umaga hapo gabi at madaling araw man…kase parehas din…late pa rin ang bagsak kohhh!!! huhuhuhuhuhu<br /><br /><br />*************************************************************************************<br />dami daming awards! nasaan!? ayun oh, tignan nyo na lang sa slide show ko..hahaha tinamaad ng ilagay dito weh....basta taos puso akong nagpapasalamat sa pagtanggap nyo sa akin, sobra, kaya nga nakakaadik dito eh...basta yun na yun, salamat!<br /><br /><br /><br />p.s.<br />ng dahil sa ulan, ayunn nilabhan ko ulit yung sinampay ko kahapon. at dahil umulan na naman ngayon, sa malamang sa hindi lalabhan ko na naman mamayang gabi yun...hayyyzzzz nakakapagod ahhhhh! paulit ulit ko ng nilalabhan...sssssuuuusmeeeeJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-3755452728558742102009-04-20T12:01:00.001+08:002009-04-20T12:09:23.907+08:00lamig na!?Ang interpretasyon natin sa buhay depende kung paano mo ito I-internalize .<br /><br />Logical. Ito ay ang mga statements, yung facts. ginamitan ng mga pamamaraan na nakikita, nababasa, naaamoy, naririnig at nalalasahan. madaling maintidihan diba. Kasi common sense. Kitang kita ang ibig ikahulugan. (naalala ko tuloy si <a href="http://ambisiyosongnangangarap.blogspot.com/2009/04/tanong.html">pogi</a> – sabi nya di pa raw nya nalasahan ang (ibang) mga blogero..hahahaa... kaya di pa kumpleto facts nya…hahahahaa...pisssss) <br /><br /><br />Intuitive. Base sa nararamdaman. Sabi nga ni wikepedia intuition has "ability to sense or know immediately without reasoning", and is often regarded as a divine or prophetic power. Katulad ng mother’s instinct. Diba gaano man natin ikubli ang ating panghihina sa mga bagay-bagay, nararamdaman ng inay yun. Isang pangyayari sa buhay ko.for many years, hindi ako naghoholy week sa aming probinsya. Usually, naglalakwatsa ako. Pero nitong nakaraan, hindi ako nagplano, hindi ako nag tawag ng barkada para mag schedule ng lakad. Yun pala, uuwi si daddy sa probinsya. For 8 years, muli syang natulog sa unang bahay na binild up nila ng mommy ko. Sobrang ligaya ko nung araw na un…hehehhe kita mo hanggang ngayon nakangiti ako,.,heheheh…Siguro una palang, naramdaman kona na mangyayari yun.<br /><br />Sabi nga lahat ng nangyayari sa ating buhay, may dahilan.<br />Kailangan nating gamitan ng logical at intuitive upang pagdugtong dugtongan ang mga pangyayari sa buhay natin. Upang mas maigi nating maintindihan ang mga tanong na bakit at paano..<br /><br />Nung birthday ko, nakatanggap ako ng regalo. Gold necklace with a mother & child pendant…….my gosh! Bigla kong naiisip, ibig sabihin magkakapamilya na ko? hehehehhe<br /><br /><br />PS<br />Buti na lang umulan kagabi…at umaambon-ambon ngayon…..hayyyzzz dina masyadong mainit pakiramdam……Jezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-44834181953412265702009-04-17T17:37:00.004+08:002009-04-17T18:05:52.963+08:00init lang<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikqEuyOj7_e-PLRAiigckiOYb4hyMsy-CFnTXWFVsUtJExcYkkw7t3TW47yOCt9ldpEnIehh0bDAn1gtp-6KjQChiWJ6gio_roMWrziXUk4a2wsQMRXYy3serqHO7rWn9IUeooCANcohY/s1600-h/untitled.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 163px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikqEuyOj7_e-PLRAiigckiOYb4hyMsy-CFnTXWFVsUtJExcYkkw7t3TW47yOCt9ldpEnIehh0bDAn1gtp-6KjQChiWJ6gio_roMWrziXUk4a2wsQMRXYy3serqHO7rWn9IUeooCANcohY/s320/untitled.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5325597074526218786" /></a><br /><br />Marunong makinig sa puso? Eh pano mga bumubulong bulong sa kapaligiran? they just want the best for you. Pero in the end, kailangan mo ring maging maligaya? <br /><br />ps<br />mainit, ang iniiiitttttJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-64737586568954453202009-04-15T15:38:00.002+08:002009-04-15T15:49:13.443+08:00in the silence of my heartIn the silence of my heart I'd listen to my spirit so freely.<br />It's when my eyes begin to see the old memories so visibly.<br />In the silence of my heart I could feel my soul so strongly.<br />In the strong sense of it I recognize the weaknesses of me.<br /><br />In the silence of my heart stuffs have different meanings.<br />I'd then realize that I greet in contempt the better things.<br />In the silence of my heart I can always visit the younger me.<br />I could honestly tell the far distance between myself and me.<br /><br />In the silence of my heart I can cry so loud like a tiny babe.<br />And taste the sweetness of freedom so desired by any slave.<br />In the silence of my heart on me power and wisdom fall down.<br />And it transforms my meekness and idiocy into blocks to step on.<br /><br />In the silence of my heart my many failures would disturb me.<br />To understand that I am to do better and persistent I must be.<br />In the silence of my heart my big successes would humble me.<br />To accept that however the height I fly gravity would pull me.<br /><br />In the silence of my heart I could rebuke and correct myself.<br />I can tell me sharp, hurtful words but never will I get upset.<br />In the silence of my heart I have envisioned the future me.<br />To meet him finally journey must begin now and so shall it be.<br /><br />In the stillness of my mind faith overwhelms all my worries.<br />Be it tribulation or test, no burden is too heavy to carry.<br />In the quiet of myself unease and hubbub of life is uncovered.<br />It tells me to be inert at the right time shall effect better.<br /><br />In the peace of my spirit there is nothing I can fret about.<br />In the worst of my circumstances seeds of solution will sprout.<br />In the silence of my heart I acknowledge my conflict with God.<br />So I am broken, to realize that in such silence nobody is so bad.<br /><br />p.s<br />nilikha ng lalaking malapit sa aking puso....(naks naman, oisssttt baka isipin mo totoo kahit totoo huwag mo ng isiping totoo..toink!)<br />naalala lang kita, kaya ayun repost repost and drama ko weh..kung bakit kita naalala, eh akin na lang yun hahahahhaha,,,anyway nagpadala na ako ng mensahe sa ym mo....kahit saang lupalop gumagala ang kaluluwa mo, i-email kita, i y-ym kita kapag nababaliw na akohhhhhh..hehehheJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-87903389666502622222009-04-14T00:55:00.003+08:002009-04-14T12:16:27.157+08:00ako? nagbablog?may diary ako, hindi kay mara o clara, sa akin talaga iyon. I was in highschool nang mag-umpisa akong magsulat sa notebook. College ako bumuo ng mga tula. May isang notepad akong nasulatan lahat ng papel, and since mom is miles away from us, pinadala ko sa kanya yun, para mabasa nya ang araw araw na kwento ng buhay ko (hayyzz..minsan kasi ang hirap magkwento sa phone kaya ayun pinadala ko journal ko…binasa kaya nya??) nalala ko, may nakitang pira pirasong papel mga kaberks ko sa kwarto ng pinsan ko(nakitulog ako dati sa kanila), laman ng papel ang mga kwentong lihim na pag-ibig. Hayyyzzz..deny aketch. Akala nyo lang ako, pero hindi..hindi, sabay kantang… i swear by the the moon and the stars in the sky and I swear….. At hindi ko alam kung sino, ano, at paano.....anyway, <br /><br />Blog? Computer? Internet? Hindi malawak ang kaisipan ko sa blog, narinig ko lang minsan isang araw sa aking pagmumuni. At nang maluwag ang schedule ko (tanda ko, wala akong taping sa kapamilya noon..ahihihi toink!) binuksan ko computer at nag sign in sa blogspot. Susyal na ako, hindi lang pang notebook, pang internet pa ang drama ng aking diary..ahihihi<br /><br />Life blogger ako,,,uu aminado ako. Kasi gusto kong kausap sarili ko weh. Bakit ba? Eh dito ako Masaya eh. Gusto ko istorya ng buhay ko (mababaw man o mababaw)at least it helps lessen the load I carry kapag nagkukwento ako. Marami namang writers,researchers, reporters,at lalu nang maraming politicians dyan. Hayaan ko na silang mamroblema ng bongang bongga sa pinas, sa war, sa global crisis, sa oil price. Don’t get me wrong. Hayyzzz…I do extend a helping hand,,,,,everytime I help, everytime I impart knowledge, binubuhay nya dugo ko and it makes me go hungry for more. Just recently i…ooopppss tsaka na kwento..tapusin ko muna itechi.<br /><br />I joined a contest sa blog. Nanalo ako, tama nanalo ako ng salapi. Natuwa ako, wow! Biruin mo nakikipaglokohan lang ako,,este nagsusulat lang ako yet may premyo akong matatanggap. PERO (capital letters yan ah, with a capital P) the biggest prize I received ay ang mga taong nakikilala ko sa sa mundo ng blogosperyo. Sa buhay mas gusto natin ang soft and easy road. And when the rough and winding road na ang ating tinatahak, hirap na hirap tayong humakbang. Strangers they may be, dahil sa kanilang mga kwento, dahil sa kanilang mga comment, dahil sa kanilang mga paalala…somehow..somehow it lessen the load we carry..(parang sinabi kona yun ahh,,ahihihi..serious mode daw ba…toink!)<br /><br />I never thought na mag-eenjoy ako dito...<br /><br />p.s.<br />galing ito kay mareng jen. ano ba ang rules? hayyzzzz.....di ko na ipapasa, hamo na. pero parang gusto kong ipasa..hahahaha..ang gulohhh...ano ba talaga lola..uu, ipapasa ko, tutal bagong dating ka, tagal mong nawala, eh nag-alala kami sa iyo,at ngayon ika'y nagbabalik....eto ang salubong ko sa iyo....kafatid na <a href="http://www.saulkrisna.blogspot.com/">saul</a> ...oisst gawin mo ahJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8816051422759993741.post-23405929114399079992009-04-10T17:48:00.003+08:002009-04-10T18:09:09.298+08:00pabasaganda ng tunog..uyyy sound<br />nakakaindak...ang paa ko, ang paa ko hindi mapigilan ang pagpadyak sa kanan, pagkatapos sa kaliwa. ang kamay ay tumaas at nakiayon na rin sa saliw ng musika..<br />nasa loob pa lang ako ng bahay dinig na dinig kona ang huni ng mambabasa sa pasyon.<br />pakatapos mamahinga sandali, lumabas ako upang makiisa sa pagbabasa (at pagkanta na rin..kung kanta ngang matatawag iyon)<br /><br />ibang iba na ang pasyon ngayon. ginamitan na nila ng modernong kagamitan. may dvd player na naka saksak, at instrumental na cd. kung hindi mo kabisado ang mga huni, pwedeng pwede mong sabayan ang tunog sa instrumental cd. o kaya kapag walang tao na gustong magbasa tuwing madaling araw, pwedeng pwede nilang patugtugin ang cd para maging alive pa rin ang kubol at ang pasyon.<br /><br />katulad ng nakagawian, mga matatanda ang nasa harapan ng altar. alam na namin na ang oras na ipapasa nila sa amin ang mikropono ay sa hating gabi kapag sila ay dalawin na ng antok. ewan ko ba, siguro ang boses namin ang panghele sa kanila o kaya ayaw nilang marinig ang boses namin at mas gugustihin pa nilang matulog. ganupaman, natutuwa ako kapag nagbabasa ng pasyon. noong mas bata pa kami sa edad namin ngayon, isa ang aming barkada sa nakikisalamuha sa mga matatanda at nakikipag unahan sa mikropono. hayyyzzzz...naalala ko tuloy yung mga barkada ko. ngayon, may kanya kanya ng buhay. at ang mga single ladies na lang nakikipagpuyatan sa pagbantay sa kubol...<br /><br />ngayon ang huling gabi ng pasyon dito sa aming lugar. at tuwing ganito, parang fiesta ang handaan. kung kaya't excited ako, biruin mo kainan na naman ito..hehehe. sabi ko magsasakripisyo ako sa pagkain, ewan ko na lang kung matatanggihan ko ang nakahain na litson mamaya...hayyyyzzzzJezhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16106276724740399507noreply@blogger.com6