Sunday, December 11, 2011

what is so special?

it's 2:40 am and my eyes are still up. omg! as if do not worry that they are puyat last night plus had a very busy and occupied day today.,..(ah yesterday na pala un..)

Dec. 10 was the wedding day of my dearest cousin aloy
Dec. 10 also the 50th golden birthday of my tita nancy
Dec. 10 also the Global One Praise concert sa SFC

wish they were scheduled on a different day.

ah forgot to mention that Dec. 10 is sweldo day also

what is so special?
because I am special
and they are all special to me
and God made this day truly full of celebration


Monday, April 19, 2010

sunday 4-18-10

In every decision we make, it is us who makes the choices. It is us to blame on the outcome, because it is our own will who decides what’s best for ourselves. But humans are sensitive and make mistakes. Humans cannot comprehend all the tribulations of the earth. And dealing with our neighborhood is much harder than dealing with any kind of God’s creation.

Depression occurs when we can no longer absorb all this motion. When we choose to shut up, it is when the hurt cut deep in our hearts. Sometimes when we choose to be voiceless, it is where the unsolicited notion resounds. We talk to ourselves and to our friends, not knowing that we referred to the angels and demons we imagined.

I have not known his actions and reactions. I am not aware of his life, all I know is he is normal just like me. I have approached him not knowing that his depression is attacking him. It is during our prayers, when he uttered his prayer that I only understand his behavior. It is during our prayers that I was enlightened. I felt guilty though, but good thing about it, it awaken me of how great blessing God has poured in me. Through it, my awareness of reality broadens.

It is also during our prayer that one brother revealed that he hasn’t visited his mom at the provincial jail for ten years. The brother is funny and very helpful. It was a shock to me to hear of his story.

It is during mingling with our neighborhood that we tend to understand life, it is when reality unlocks. We were not all born on the same level and on the same time for us to appreciate and empathize with our fellow. In pursuit of our happiness, we stumble and frustrate, in doing so may we hold on to His promise that he will not leave us. He will cast the burdens we carry.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

i miss this

i miss my mom.
i miss her baked lasagna.
i miss her tinola.
i miss her touch.
seven years of not having her by my side...
many sleepless nights and only her voice could calm me..
then i'll be fine..
if God permit, I'll be seeing her next year..

i miss my snowy.
oopss, she's not a person though.
but i miss taking her to the vet...
i miss walking her to the park...
if only i have more spare time...
on monday is holiday, perhaps then...
if i permit, just like old times...

okei, i'm thinking of him..
but i don't miss him..
him, whose laugh linger on my mind..
could that be possible?

sometimes i just feel lonely
sometimes i just want to be
with someone who appreciates me

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