irrational

If only minds are for sale
Consumer wouldn’t risk acquiring mine
It’s a bad deal
For if you unwrapped it,
You’ll find it very irrational
I do not understand mine.
In fact, I do not know what to do.
I do not know what I want
I do not know where I’m going
Crazy I am, yes.
I live life as it is everyday.
I try to keep myself busy so as
Not to sense the boredom of my life
But it just haunts me every now and then
It’s tough to get up now and go

you

when i first saw you,
i was afraid to talk to you
and so im pleased in merely looking at you
when you smile,
everything seems so light
and i rejoiced at seeing you this way
when i first talked to you,
i know i stumble
i feel like a child
blinded about my behavior
yet your words indeed echoes on my mind
and i let it flow through me
when i first liked you,
i was afraid to love
i don't know how it happened
i even suppress my feelings but
i like the sensations my heart decides
so it gives me pain, and its unbearable
i know my heart is very stubborn
it keeps on loving and longing too much
for nothing at all