i dont know

what happen now?
what should i do?
fearlessly, without hesitation
i love him
quitely, even i...
even i dont know
pretending i've forgotten
even though i live, i die
even the worlds condemnation
even this crazed appearance
even knowing all this,
even though it frightens me
i love him
where are you?
can you really hear my words?
then, this the blood that spills
from my pitiful love
you must know this too
if you punish me, ill accept it
but him,,.,,,,just this one person
please allow our love

haayyy......it feels so heaven when you're in love. but im not, not to any particular person. even though, i still love the feeling of in love.

my sunday

i woke up at 9:30 in the morning...considering that i slept at 4:45am that morning.
the sounds of children gigling and playing woke me up.

at 2:30pm i went to the gym. work out my body for one hour then stayed at steam bath. i love staying inside of the steam bath room. wearing just only one piece suit makes my body comfortable while absorbing the heat and sweating out.
though the dry sauna is out of service so we were kinda crowded inside the steam bath room.

at 6:00pm i attended the sunday mass. sitting beside me is a guy. i didnt saw his face until the peace be with you on which i gave him a smile...ohwell,,,,in fairness he is cute. though im kinda disappointed because i saw him used the cellphone while hearing the mass

now, at 7:30 my officemate is giving me a message that she made her decision to accept the offer of a law firm. i just wish her luck and hoping she made a wise and smart move. sometimes we find things that we do not actually understand, but what we know is that we have to do it because one way or another its for our own growth.

we did not cook food for dinner so i just called jollibee to deliver us some chicken, spaghetti, burget and fries

isn't it late?

we see each other every day.
yet very seldom we talk.
i know, we know why
we just keep silent.
i want to be close to you
but circumstances do not allow
will this be any longer?
will this be forever?
i do not bother to ask
i do not bother to question
it's better than this
just as they say, truth hurts
enough of the pain
im having headache now
just thinking of you
where are you going?
is it any of my right?
to ask you?
wont even bother
you'll walk away anyway
you said, you'll end it up
but you're making it worst
you cannot turn back
i can see that
the door is closing
where are you going?
foolish of me
i dont learn my lesson