Saturday, February 28, 2009

big bang boom

Nahihirapan akong magi sip ng title eh, kaya yan na lang. ewan ko ba, bakit sa title pa ako nahihirapan mag-isip, siguro hindi na kaya ng isip ko na isipin pa yun.

I can’t believe
I can’t imagine
All I can see
Makes no sense at all

I want to shout
I want to scream
As far as I can
As far as it goes

How could I share?
If no one will listen
To this endless misery
Of my ache life

Do I have to approach?
Before you notice
How could you be so insensitive?
To others feeling

Do i have to whisper
Before you hear
My thoughts and pain
Hiding within myself

I am lost in the dark
Abandoned by the crowd
No one to turn to
For I am all alone

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

he's just not that into you

Madami ang cast. Apat na babae, apat na lalaki. Mapapa hayyyyyyy at ohhhh my gossssh! At he’s so sweet ka naman. Light and A feel good movie. Since madami ang cast, umikot ang istorya sa kanila kaya ang exposure nila ay very limited.

Pinakita kung paano makipag converse ang lalaki sa girl and how love happen in an unexpected time. Hindi ito maipipilit at hindi rin pwedeng madaliin
Walang rules pagdating sa love pero may mga clues, and this would be of assistance para sa course of action mo.

Pero sa totoo lang, Malabo pa rin kahit ang mga clues. OO, tumatawag ka. Nag-uusap tayo. Lumalabas tayo. Nag chachat tayo. Pero pagkatapos ano? Hindi ako naniniwala sa MU. Yung tinatawag nilang May Unawaan, kasi assuming ka lang dun eh, kasi sa MU- May Umaasa,at may Malabong Usapan (not to mention may Malaswang Ugnayan)

Have you watch ung movie na Serendipity? Siguro if you really meant for each other, the universe will conspire to make it happen, para magkita kayo and fall in love.

Eto lang masasabi ko (kahit marami na akong nasabi): Be yourself. No pretentions. The guy/girl would accept and love you for who you are. And he will make a way kung gusto ka nyang makita or makausap. Wish ko lang,1-2 yrs ago ko napanood ang movie na ito so I would have known kung ano ang ginawa ko,…..sana, now everything is what if…

I haven’t found my prince charming and I don’t know how close I am in finding him. For now, ako muna si Gigi just like in the movie, who was very hopeful, confident and positive about having a relationship. And who tries to understand the signs and clues circling around

Or ako muna si Anna (played by scarlett johansson)– single, flirt, hot and sexy!!!! hahahahaha

Monday, February 23, 2009

colorless

Jez, are you pregnant?
Ahhhhh? Whhhaatttt?
What made you say that? I asked.
Naman! Nagulat tlga ako dun ng bongang bonga. Buntis daw ako?? Eh, member kaya ako ng single blessedness (dba, mareng jen)
Ang putla mo kasi, she answered.
Omg! really I am? Oo…

Kanina umaga, paggising ko ako ay muntik ng mabuwal. Ako ma’y nagulat.
Umupo ako at sinariwa ang nakaraang pinaggagawa ko sa buhay.
At aking napagtanto…..

Una. May lagnat ako noong nakaraan lingo. Ganunpaman, pumapasok ako sa opisina. Naisip ko kasi, lalo lang akong magkakasakit sa kakaupo at kakahiga sa bahay (alam ko, matigas ulo ko..ukie)

Pangalawa. Wala akong exercise. Dahil ako nga ay may sakit, hindi muna ako pumunta sa gym (tsk, lugi na naman ako)

Pangatlo. Ang dami kong binayaran na expenses. Na stress at na drain na savings ko, kaya mega super tipid muna ako. aaaahhhhhhh (ayy hindi pala, ayaw kong sinasabi na wala akong pera, or drain ako, baka kasi magkatoto eh)

Pang-apat: dahil sa puyat. Ka-adik nga naman kasi ang mundo dito. Pero maaga akong natulog kagabi ah, (12:30mn)

Pang-lima: Kahapon,dahil may okasyon sa bahay (unang berthday ni pamangkin) at nagging busy ako, mantakin mo bang nakalimutan kong kumain ng breakfast, lunch, merienda. At 10:00 ng gabi ng ako’y kumain ng dinner…hayyyyzzzzzz

Tapos, kaninang umaga, medyo nagkaroon ako ng error sa addition at subtraction ng mga numero. Medyo lang naman, kaso para sa boss ko malaki yun sympre....hehehe. kaya ayun, what do you expect, edi pinagalitan ako. Ang sabi “I don’t want this to happen again” ooohhhh noooo.

Kaya siguro lalo akong namutla….

Friday, February 20, 2009

special agent


Hayyyyyyyyyy napakahirap maging babae.
Tulad ngayon, wala na kaming kasambahay sa bahay at bilang nag-iisang babae sa aming pamilya obligado akong kumilos. Maghugas ng plato, Punas dito, walis dito. Yan ang aking ginagawa bago umalis at pagdating ng bahay…okei okei, wala ng punas…at konting walis lang…hehhehe. buti na lang marunong magluto si daddy at si kapatid.

Kanina dala-dala kong bumaba ang mga maduduming damit ko, nilagay sa mesa at sabay sabi “daddy, paki daan naman sa laundry shop” wahahahah…tinawag ko pa syang daddy inutusan din pala…hehehe

Naisip ko tuloy, If I were a boy, ano kaya ang mga bagay-bagay na gagawin ko….

Hhhmmmmmmnn….mag-eenrol ako sa PMA bilang cadete. Hinid ako maggagraduate na top honor, oks lang. Perp kabilang ako sa ititrain nila bilang special agent dahil sa taglay kong husay . tapos kukunin ako ng gobyerno sympre, padadala sa iba’t ibang bansa upang lalong ihensayo. Ng malaman ng America at british govt ang kahusayan ko pag-aagawan nila ako. Ahihihiii…ang gulo ng utak ko ah!toink! Bakit napunta ako dun!

At kahit mahirap maging babae, ayaw ko pa rin maging lalaki noh!!!!!!

oks lang na maging special agent ako sa aming bahay, no problem. ill do it with love...ahihihiihi...pero kung may gagawa nun para sa akin, hhmmm why not.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

tag tarag tag

dahil usong-uso ang tag (ewan kung may koneksyon yun dahil buwan ng mga puso), eto at may narecib akong 50 random things i ilyk mula kay mareng azel. wahahahahaah...50 things. susss! kaya ko ba itechi. hehehehe...see, lets see....i love!

(1)dancing(2)combat!(3)taebo(4)muay thai(5)fish ball(6)squid ball(7)dragon ball z(8)sashimi(9)sushi(10)tempura(11)pasta!!(12)green mango(13)pati na rin hinog na manga (14)burong kapampangan(15)adobong kapampangan(16)dog(17)taho(18)numbers (19)television(20)cakes-conti's & estrells(21)pastries(22)pizza(23)water(24)longggg conversation (25)milk(26)peanut butter(27)cooking(28)kulay azul(29)berde(30)puti(31)yakult(32)tv series na 24(33)playing with kids(34)christmas(35)holy week(36)duhat(37)kaimito(38)bibingka(39)magsulat (40)maglakad (41)transformer movie(42)reading(43)paper(44)pen(45)singing(46)(47)peanuts(48)mag-shopping(49)travel(50)pinas!


whheeeewwwwww!
gravacious tlga itetchi. nagutom tuloy ako! kasi naman puro ata pagkain ang binaggit ko...ahihihihii. at dahil nahirapan ako, gaganti ako sympre. bro,
ice , kaw naman...enjoy!

Monday, February 16, 2009

the end of start

bakit the end of start ang title? ay ewan! wala akong maisip. ay hindi pala, may naisip ako at un ang naisip ko. (ano daw?) o sya, share ko lang....

a start need to finish
a beginnig has it end

happiness would never happy
if there's no loneliness
how can you enjoy
if there's no fear

a day isn't always fun
excitement, joy, and fear ride
for today there is tomorrow
as loneliness and happiness fuse together

everyone needs to be love
to love meant to hurt
for to be with your special someone
conflict and problems are your strongest enemy

sometimes something happen
in a time were we unexpected
we may not really want it
but it's a life to live

Friday, February 13, 2009

My Shopaholic Confession

Hi! My name is Jez and im a shopaholic!

I have forgotten so many things in my life, yet I can vividly remember the moment I was fascinated with shopping. Mom and Dad were scheduled for an interview at the us embassy. Since I got my paycheck, I told Mom that we will buy clothes for her to wear during interview. And there we were surrounded by shorts, skirts, pants, blouses, ties, tank tops, belts, sandals, bags, pants. That time, I felt I was Alicia Silverstone (of the movie clueless) having a huge closest. And for the first time, I also daydream of winning the “shop till you drop” promo of any credit card company so I could have countless of clothes, bags, shoes and accessories in my closet. Thinking of this put smile in my face. In a little while, mom had picked a skirt, blouse, and sandals and when she all wore them she is shining, indeed. Mom coached me in my outfit. She let me know if I fit or not the clothes I wear until I was acquainted with my own manner and style.

When we went to hongkong, I convinced myself not to spend a penny for shopping. I was only carrying one travel bag when we left the Philippines, but on our way back home I am bringing already two travel bag. The extra bag I bought in HK was full of shirts, blouses, pants, caps, belts, bags and accessories!

I admit, I have an inclination of being an impulsive buyer. I’ve bought blouses that I’ve wore once or twice only. One pant I even bought that I never wear.
It is still there in my closest, hanging and untouched with its price tag. I bought it two years ago!!!


That story goes the same with my books. I have lots of books I never read.
I have bags I seldom use. I have also one that I have never used.
I have sandals I only wore once.


I had no idea what pushed me to buy; I don’t exactly why; I guess it’s the strong feeling of connection and add-on to my life. “Yes, I know my limitations and my capacity. I am in control of myself and of my credit card.” I always tell that to myself, always! But who am I deceiving?? ? I am weak.

Just last January, I decided to stop for awhile so I cut my credit card into pieces. I paid all the remaining balances and called the customer hotline to cut their service. I was so happy when I received my billing statement with zero amounts due.


But since I earned points, I told the customer service agent to convert it into a gift certificate of store specialist. Talking about being tired, huh!








Catch “confession of a shopaholic “ in cinemas on February 18, 2009.







isang hamon

ngayon ang huling araw ng aking kasambahay. isang taon at isang buwan ko rin syang nakasama. naging magaan ang pakikitungo ko sa buhay ng dahil sa kanya. ang busy-busy(h)an kong buhay ay naging maluwag. nabigyan ko ng panahon ang aking trabaho sa opisina, ang aking sarili, ang aking mga kaibigan at ang aking pamilya.
umaalis ako at dumarating ng bahay na kampanteng may pagkain sa mesa, nalabhan ang aking mga damit, malinis ang aking kwarto at higit sa lahat may nag-aalaga sa aking mahal na aso.

ngayon sya'y lilisan na, nag-iisip na akong stratehiya kung paano pagkakasyahin ang oras sa mga gawain. nagtatrabaho ako mula lunes hanggang sabado, umaga hanggang hapon. pagka-gabi pumupunta ko sa gym, minsan gabi kung makipagkita ang aking mga kaibigan sa kadahilanang pare-parehas na may trabaho. tuwing linggo kailangan kong umuwi ng probinsya upang makipaglaro sa aking kaisa-isang pamangkin at upang gampanan ang obligasyon ko sa aking ka-organisasyon.

Napakahirap pa namang maglinis, magluto, maglaba, mamlantsa at mag-alaga ng aso…kung dati nakaya kong lahat iyon ng wala akong kasambahay, siguro naman magagawa ko ulit yun.

Hayyyy buhhhaayyyy…affected kasi ng krisis eh, kaya kailangang magbawas ng gastos. Huh!

Monday, February 2, 2009

it doesn't matter

there is a place in sagada they call "echo valley". if you shout any word, it would resonate unto you. and there i repeated shouting words and names when i was there years ago.

this past few days the phrase "it doesn't matter" keeps on echoing in my mind.

we're friends. it doesn't matter.
you look good. it doesn't matter.
you walk so sexy. it doesn't matter.
we talk. it doesn't matter.
we chat. it doesn't matter.
we dine. it doesn't matter.
i dream of you. it doesn't matter.

yes it doesn't. no matter i turn the world upside down, no matter i say what if....i should have done this and that.....if only.....all this thoughts in my mind, everything doesn't matter anymore.

i am aware of course, believe me i am. that night we parted ways i felt light and happy. i wish you all the best, im sure you know that. people may not understand our friendship, but it doesn't matter because we know in our hearts that we truly care for each other. and we are friends that all that matters to me.

 
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